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What a week...

Course going well n its the last week this week, then i start my other course - Stress Control - on friday the 5th july.
Healthwise, no fits for over 4 weeks, but ended up in costa last mon - tues pm coz of blooming lungs!! grrr was so glad to get back home to see Dai n have cwtches :)
but... weds had rebound attack but luckily only few hours spent in A + E this time! came home to find Dai cooking for us :) still coughing wee bit coz of bloody infection again though finished my antibiotics :)
Got GP tomorrow morning to reweigh me coz of the wt loss tabs she gimmee to take combined with eating low fat food 3/day. last weight check had lost 6.5lb - 2 weeks ago :D
Got neuro cons 11/7/13 bout the fits

Psych wise? dunno where to start :( had a really bad few days last week coz of anniversaries of diff things n what i have been through recently :( thinking bout my miscarriage mostly - 17 days ago now ;( n saturday was another anniversary - 2 years since i had a cardiac arrest, i was dead for 2 mins in the ambulance, in front of my sister. Dont wish anything like that on anyone. Between that, being intubated, various miscarriages n some other things that have happened which i would rather not talk bout, the psychologist says i have PTSD, along with severe clinical depression, schizophrenia n self harming. although, tomorrow be 9 months since i last cut or burnt myself (oct 2. 2012). Spent 2 weeks in Cefn Coed n Ward F at local hosp in july last year, was fucking hard, but i had to do it. So glad i had dai to help me through things :)
seen my CPN fri for a catch up n she gonna chase up day services for me to see what other courses i can do to keep busy. Also she says to ring or text her anytime i am feeling really down or wanna chat but talk to Dai as well. said it works 2 ways between me n Dai: i speak to him, he speaks to me when feeling the same. I can just go to meet up with her whenever needed :)
its just sometimes things get toooooooo much, u know especially lately :(