Another day In my life...

Well.. Another day in mika's life.
Still having fits but not for over a week now. Finally got an appt June 24th n asthma cons 21st June. I am in high demand!!
Getting used to being diabetic n diet changes, it's so hard. Grrr
On orlistat from gp help me lose weight, which I take 3 times a day with food
Migraines n joint pains continue. Apparently I maybe salicylate sensitive :| luckily painkillers work... When given time to work but pain in ankles worse
Fell Monday badly spraining my foot :( I feel like I am always complaining bout something or something wrong u know.
Good news - found out last weekend that I am pregnant!! Will be six weeks this Monday =)) but last Tuesday started bleeding a little so feared the worst. Spoken to gp who said to retest on Friday. It was positive still so I had a threatened miscarriage but it fuckinh frightened me as thi baby means the world to me and Dai u know. Seen obs n Gynae cons last Tuesday too but didn't tell her I was pregnant. She reckons I have lost all previous pregnancies coz of my weight n if I lose another 2-3 stone, she positive I be okay to carry to term with no problems... So seem like I must to be to blame ;( I was carrying them n I am too fat ;( voices n depression raging this week n head been all over the place like am on emotional roller coaster n emotionally drained N have been in bed n asleep by 9:30 tues, weds n Thursday! Managed 3 hours sleep last night then had another 2 hrs grrr
Been needing extra meds to help me n weather being so hot am needing extra inh as well, but steroid still between 20-25mg. Oh n the obs n Gynae cons said on too many meds but stopped the diuretics n increased my folic acid to 5mg coz of my weight - not like I fucking like taking my meds n their side effects meaning more meds needed!!!!
Pred causing joint probs, severe reflux n brittle bones n asthma affecting my heart as well :(
Ever since tuesday n the cons more or less blaming me coz of my weight, I been having voices raging n needed extra meds to get rid n feelingso low coz when started bleeding thought 'not again!' been okay though since yesterday :)

So. To today. Went for brekkie in town then sunbathing down dai's auntie Karen's n caught the sun - oops!! Sunburn to chest, arms, back n face :|

Don't seem to be having any morning sickness this time only norm reflux which taking meds for, as well as gaviscon! I ain't complaining though if I see, smell or cook an egg for dai to have egg sandwich then i am heaving!! Ever since last pregnancy I can't go near eggs :| weird! But one thing I have noticed is that am more tired.
Still focusing on Caitlyn rose/ faith hope for girl n Keegan John/Logan James for a boy. Keep teasing dai that I am carrying twins - wont know till scan on 24/7/13 n got midwife next Thursday at 10am. Just wanna be a mummy u know n fingers crossed everything be okay this time =)) due date - 3/2/14 that's 2 days after my birthday! Great pressie for me ini ;) though I will admit I am petrified that when I am a mum coz of all my problems - especially my asthma with it being so severe u know. Don't wish my problems on anyone, never mind my own child.
Haven't told psych yet but know what meds need to stop n be careful with. Diazepam defo no no unless absolutely needed, same with anti psychotic haloperidol, anti depressants to continue as well as other anti psychotic n sleeping tabs as the benefits outweighs the risks to me n lil bump
Maybe u all will think its too early for me to say am pregnant n I agree, but it has an impact on my physical n psych probs u know so it explains a bit as to the way I am feeling
Till next time, big hugs xxx